n sejak kebelakangan nih..aku mula terfikir..dia mula kerap ajak aku keluar...mgkin dia ckp dia ajak aku keluar sbb die ade mse...or byk lg la alasan dia... yg pasti bukan sebenarnya nk jmpa aku pon..dia ckp mcm tu...but bg aku...dia memg nk jmpe aku cume dia xnk nmpk sgt...yeah..tiap kali jmpe dia kasar ngn aku..ckp kasar..ckp ikut sedap hati...bukan mcm dulu berfikir sebelum dia bercakap sesuatu ngn aku supaya aku xsakit hati..die dah mula hisap rokok balik sedangkan dia tau aku xsuka dia merokok...fon dia selalu bunyi mse keluar ngn dia...tapi...dia nk jmpe aku...n die wat bende2 yg menyakitkan hati aku...okay...wut is this...
sayang ape yg u nk tnjuk?
hurm...well...first yg aku realise..hri aku nk g umh yan ade discussion...da lewat...aku da fikir xnk pergi dah mlm tu...tp tibe2 dia ckp..." xpe meh abg anta.." shock!! tu je yg aku leh discribe perasaan aku mse tuh..i never tought dia akn senang hati nk anta aku padahal die sgt jauh mse tu...die kt seberang jaya aku kt pmtg pauh..n dr sbrg jaya he hav to turn back to go to pmtg pauh n turn back to back to his house....n u noe..buat ape die nk wat semua tu?
then sblm hri aku gi umah yan...hri isnin...petg tu die msg aku...'syg hri rabu habis kels kul brape?'.....then i replied' kul 5...y?'....then he replied..' hri rabu kite gi tgk wyg..' then i said 'ok...'
so die pernah ckp dia xnk keluar ngn aku hri dia bekerja melainkan mse cuti becoz he wants to spend time with his frens....then hari rabu i went out with him n i ask him y...then he said without looking into my eyes...' abg nk buat ot pon hri nih xde brg...so thats y i ajak u kluar..' well for me its an egoist answer....kalau xde brg n boleh balik awal die boleh balik kot...or dia boleh pegi mah kwn dia lepak kt sana mcm yg die slalu buat sebelum aku balik sbb of course member dia da balik keja mse tu....am i rite fellows...???
da brape kali dia ajak aku keluar? 2 kan?
then..hri khamis ayh die excident..he said dia xkn dpt jmpe aku for a moment, n he hope that i understand the situation...okay...i will...then mlm tu die tetap ajak aku keluar mkn...kate xnk kluar kan???hri jumaat die msg aku..'jom teman abg lunch..' padahal die leh lunch sndri kt kantin hospital kan???then...mlm he text me again 'jom dinner ngn i' i owez said okay..see sape yg ajak kluar..padahal die sgt messy n sgt xde mood....die kate if dia xde mood jgn ajak kluar..ok aku xajak kluar but die yg ajak...n aku heppy sbnrnye to talk bout this,,...
so i noe skg die need aku by his side...tp die xmo ckp...dia ngah ego...die sgt nk jmpe aku but tgu aku yg ajak tp aku x ajak....so die yg ask dulu...huhu...
n skg memg aku sure...EN SABRI BIN SABDIN memang sayangkan aku sgt2.....